Now i'm going to write something about my life.
Uninspiring one and usually plain, commonly done and lots went in vain. I'm a man standing like a light of a candle, did so much dancing and plenty of denial. I don't know why i'm going to write these, while i still feel like stumbling between mist. One day i saw an old lady rubbing her hair on a rocking chair, i got jealous to her smile which came every once in a while. I don't know why can't i be happy like that, probably because my kind is quite bad. These simple stupid pointless shitty rhymes have fucking gone pretty bad undone, so shut the fuck up cause my anaconda don't want none unless you got buns.
The hell is that?
The hell happened?
YO WHAT'S UP YO, HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU GOIN' YO, I'M FUCKING FINE IF YOU WONDERING YO.
no not really.
Too much pressure.
I'm dying.
AND FUCK WHO CARES YO. FUCK THOSE SHITS YO.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllll good evening everyone. Lately i've been having some kind of sudden panic attack. As you know i'm currently on the last grade of high school, and soon will be leaving all the joyous life of it. NAH DON'T YOU THINK I'M SAD, not yet. I'm having the thing which all the last grade of high school students are having all over the world, the feeling of being so close to something which might determine the rest of the life path. University.
I know that it isn't guaranteed for university graduates to get a job, but it is guaranteed that common job required university graduates. Life is unfair i know. But i'm not strong enough to swim against the stream yet. So guys, i face it, with the uncountable doze of hate to myself for my inability, weakness, and the fate. No they don't slow me down, they can't slow me down, because i'm not moving either hahaha.
I just don't know where me will take me to, really i hate myself, and i hate this country, oh god why did i born on this retarded country god.
Ich werde in UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA studieren möchten. Weil ich Deutsch sprechen kann, denn ich den Deutschen Literatur abnehmen werde. Aber ich habe Deutsch viele vergessen. So jetzt ich kann nur ein bisschen Deutsch sprechen. Diese Wörter sind das am einfachsten von die anderen, aber ich schreibe dies mit keine Wörterbuch. SO FUCK THIS AND THAT.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHETHER THOSE WERE THE PROPER WAY TO SAY THAT. FUCK IT FUCK.
May the fortune be with me. I'm so confused and so exhausted of living this situation. I can't think clearly, i can't pass even a minute without thinking anything about my future. You may say that i'm terrified, because yes i am.
At this point, all i want to do is just go back to my childhood where everything went so magical and wonderful. I remember the time when i was just go outside everyday without thinking about anything so crucial. I remember the time when i would be crying when i got bullied then i prayed i want to grow older faster. I remember the time where i don't need to wipe my ass on my own. I remember those beautiful things. And now here i am.
I think that's enough for today, no more complaining.
Uninspiring one and usually plain, commonly done and lots went in vain. I'm a man standing like a light of a candle, did so much dancing and plenty of denial. I don't know why i'm going to write these, while i still feel like stumbling between mist. One day i saw an old lady rubbing her hair on a rocking chair, i got jealous to her smile which came every once in a while. I don't know why can't i be happy like that, probably because my kind is quite bad. These simple stupid pointless shitty rhymes have fucking gone pretty bad undone, so shut the fuck up cause my anaconda don't want none unless you got buns.
The hell is that?
The hell happened?
YO WHAT'S UP YO, HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU GOIN' YO, I'M FUCKING FINE IF YOU WONDERING YO.
no not really.
Too much pressure.
I'm dying.
AND FUCK WHO CARES YO. FUCK THOSE SHITS YO.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllll good evening everyone. Lately i've been having some kind of sudden panic attack. As you know i'm currently on the last grade of high school, and soon will be leaving all the joyous life of it. NAH DON'T YOU THINK I'M SAD, not yet. I'm having the thing which all the last grade of high school students are having all over the world, the feeling of being so close to something which might determine the rest of the life path. University.
I know that it isn't guaranteed for university graduates to get a job, but it is guaranteed that common job required university graduates. Life is unfair i know. But i'm not strong enough to swim against the stream yet. So guys, i face it, with the uncountable doze of hate to myself for my inability, weakness, and the fate. No they don't slow me down, they can't slow me down, because i'm not moving either hahaha.
I just don't know where me will take me to, really i hate myself, and i hate this country, oh god why did i born on this retarded country god.
Ich werde in UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA studieren möchten. Weil ich Deutsch sprechen kann, denn ich den Deutschen Literatur abnehmen werde. Aber ich habe Deutsch viele vergessen. So jetzt ich kann nur ein bisschen Deutsch sprechen. Diese Wörter sind das am einfachsten von die anderen, aber ich schreibe dies mit keine Wörterbuch. SO FUCK THIS AND THAT.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHETHER THOSE WERE THE PROPER WAY TO SAY THAT. FUCK IT FUCK.
May the fortune be with me. I'm so confused and so exhausted of living this situation. I can't think clearly, i can't pass even a minute without thinking anything about my future. You may say that i'm terrified, because yes i am.
At this point, all i want to do is just go back to my childhood where everything went so magical and wonderful. I remember the time when i was just go outside everyday without thinking about anything so crucial. I remember the time when i would be crying when i got bullied then i prayed i want to grow older faster. I remember the time where i don't need to wipe my ass on my own. I remember those beautiful things. And now here i am.
I think that's enough for today, no more complaining.
Good evening. Hope you all reach what you've been dreaming.
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